Sometimes I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up. It's not that I am suicidal or anythings like that, it's that when I'm dreaming no one looks at me, analyzing me or dislike me/ avoid me because of my appearance. In my dreams I'm not even the main part and that what I like, not having the spotlight on me. Even though I am a loner and no one pays attention to me there's also a spotlight on me at the same time. I stand out. Every morning I walk to my both bus stop (i take 3 buses in the morning to get to my alternative school and 2 to get home) I can feel their dislike for me radiate off them. I can't do anything about it either, can't tell them what I think about it, how I feel, or that there assumptions about me because of my appearance isn't accurate, but when I'm dreaming I can. I can cuss as much as I want to someone, act out, and hit them. I don't have to worry about other people's opinions. I can't help who I am in real life or what I look like,but in my dreams... in my dreams I can. So don't wake me up... ever.